How apathetic is that ... three hours of better music isn't enough for me to get out of my comfy office chair and play with the radio for a few minutes.
I've been watching my friends behave in the most outrageous ways ... sometimes I'm blown away by how stupid otherwise intelligent people can be. I have no choice but to watch it all, but if anyone wonders why I'm watching from a further distance, take a look at what you do. I get sick of being there when people do the same stupid shit over and over. I'm tired of peoples games, guilt trips, cruelty, neuroses, and drama. the list of people i count as friends has grown shorter.
Yes, I can be a judgmental bitch. I'm in no mood to care. You are all welcome to do whatever you wish to do, and I will make my choices in how i will respond. Most likely with silence and honesty.
I'm really in a mood to spew hate ... i dare someone to call me and ask me how i really feel ... i'd be happy to tell you ...
or maybe i'll just convince myself that i don't care.
i guess if i didn't care about these people it wouldn't bother me when they behave as idiots.
I just want this shift to be over so i can go home and curl up in his arms, and pretend that the rest of this world doesn't exist. I want to keep him there so that I don't have any reason to come back to the OC ... i need to get away from all of this shit ... i know it's selfish of me, but i'm selfish.
i think i may be nearing some kind of breaking point.
Visited Season last night for a little while, and in a strange way, it was kinda nice. I had as pleasant a time as one could have while trying to keep someone company in a hospital room. Lots of talking, a few laps around the ward, including a tour of the hidden spaces on the floor.
i should go ... there was a phone call, and now a vomiting dog is coming in ...