I really hate that when I'm using my laptop, I'm stuck on AOHell and can't hide from the world. If I had any way to hide, I would, because I generally don't want to talk to anyone.
People bewilder me. If you don't want to be my friend ... hell, if you send me an e-mail telling me you don't want to be my friend ... then fine. Don't. let it be done. and don't try to stir things up shortly after. don't try to make me feel bad for things i didn't do. For fuck's sake, i'm not even sure what i was accused of. if you don't want to be my friend, just leave me the fuck alone and don't cause me any more pain. I am not a strong person to handle shit like this right now.
I need to stay the fuck out of OC, mmm hmm, that's what I need to do. I hate this place. I could do without most of the people in it. Like I told michael the other day, work and him are the only reasons i come back all the time.
I'm really, really angry right now. I was really, really sad, but it transforms like that sometimes.
I hope i can sleep.
I need to remember to call that therapist tomorrow. I'm fucking losing it.