all this sadness i've been dragging around has been eclipsed by rage.
and anger is a much more productive emotion for me. i get so much more done when i am pissed.
I've sent out e-mails and updated my resume. I'll be calling another emergency hospital in the morning and speaking to the manager there. I'd really like to get back in with the insurance company i used to work for, as i liked the stability there.
i should get back to work ... i don't intend to leave my job unfinished, so i'm trying to get everything caught up until the end of the month.
the letter i have written out in my head is scathing. hopefully the one i get on paper will be more professional.