Michael: "Yeah ... you've got way more invested in my cock than my elbow. I know you won't hurt that."
and he grudgingly allows me to post this dialogue ...
if that was TMI, i'm sorry.
no i'm not. if that was tmi, too fucking bad.
went by TC tonight, briefly. stayed until the gawdawful caterwauling started from inside, then i took my knitting and ran to michael's.
i forgot it was open mic night. if i'd have known, i probably wouldn't have gone, i probably would have stayed in my car or went to my mom's. too many people. no good singing since season is gone. good conversation with tyler, though. and an offer to trade a stripey scarf for sex toys ... which really is an offer i can't resist.
i learned a new stitch today ... how exciting is that? I know, it's not. it's exciting to me, dammit. it's really fucking difficult and will probably slow me down horribly. Michael's mom helped me get better at it.
a girl in jamba juice (i'm becoming addicted to the cranberry type smoothies, though they do awful things to my blood sugar) was raving over my hair color today. I think i may stick with this red, i've gotten some compliments on it. and it stays in for more than a week. fucking amazing.
it still feels good to be unemployed. and i still haven't heard anything about my paycheck. or my unemployment. or my vacation pay. patience, grasshopper.
it is apparent that i'm catching a certain amount of flack for not planning on attending the party on saturday ... i don't feel that i should have to defend myself, but i'm going to anyway ...
i'm anxious.
i'm paranoid.
my social issues have been hounding me lately, and it's been hard enough to see my close friends in small groups, let alone close friends, aquaintances, and people that i don't like/don't like me in a large group with loudness, alcohol, and such things. I'm afraid that halfway through the party i'd jump in the lake and try to swim away.
the people that talk to me on a regular basis know these things.
the people that don't, they make assumptions.
it's not because i don't like anyone (or if i do, they know it already), it's just not a setting where i'm going to be comfy.
new bad religion is coming out in june ... i like the song i've already heard ... i twitch with anticipation. i <3 BR.
gonna go snuggle chinchillas at petco tomorrow ... and maybe go see hellboy with cody and joe ... i think tomorrow might actually be a good day.
