so back to mission viejo i go, creeping through traffic. Pick up michael, make one stop on the way back to treat ourselves to smoothies, then then to michael's house, where i drink one beer and pass out on the couch until five.
the things i put myself through for this boy.
Saw Hellboy last night, we went with Joe and Cody. Good movie. I love going out with the two of them, and i'm going to be so sad when Cody moves away. I do have a date to dye easter eggs with her on monday, though. should be fun.
time for last minute decision making - i still don't think i'm going to go to the party tonight. I just can't believe it would be a good idea, nor would it result in anything positive. I'm going to drive up to my house ... maybe do some knitting.
the super-fluffy yarn i ordered has not yet arrived. grr. i have projects to start. oh well. i'll do more practicing. i had this nifty little heart pattern half made, but i screwed up one stitch because i was half asleep, and rather than fix it, i just unraveled the whole thing. it can be done again.
Flea is demanding that i play fetch with him. he can be quite the persistent chihuahua.
I've been getting all weepy lately over things i know i don't need to be weepy about. I worry because i have to plan out every detail ... i have to know what i want, and the exact path i'm going to take to get there. if my goals aren't clear, i get frustrated and sad.
i think i need to work on this. i guess i shouldn't worry so much.
Driving the other day, getting lost halfway on purpose, i found where i want to buy my next house. it's no father away, maybe a little closer, maybe a little harder to get to. i found this valley on the east side of Riverside ... cute houses on big lots, with room for animals ... big animals. i could maybe someday have my horse if i lived out there. It's green, not dusty dry like some of the places around riverside. maybe when i get through school ... heh.
i plan too much.