today i am weak and cold and unmotivated. my hands are trembly.
i do have a reason to get out of bed, however. I'm meeting ben for lunch. i missed ben. i miss that whole little group, but i've written all of them off but him. i don't know why i let the whole thing bother me so much, but it does. i feel used.
my brother needs to use the computer ... i guess i should let him, seeing as how it's his computer ...
and you people all disappointed me the other day, by not tearing into me anonymously and breaking what spirit i have left. slackers.
