May 27th, 2003


strange dreams

i had odd dreams last night ... betrayal by my family, rejection, sex. I don't usually dream with such emotional intensity. this bothers me ... sleep is my refuge. I have enough to deal with in my waking hours.

I really want to get over whatever has been bothering me. Maybe it's just a mood I've been in, i wish i could narrow it down to something and fix this problem. but without knowing why ... i don't understand my brain sometimes.

One more night of work, and then some time to repair myself.

I am home today, and I think I am happy to be home ... sometimes this place feels like a sanctuary, sometimes like a prison.
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