January 4th, 2004

black

rehashing the ouch

Why do I sit here and re-read old e-mails and journal entries? I read, and i get sad over things that have been long resolved ... to open up the things that hurt is to feel it all over again, I guess.

I spent a fair part of last year confused and in pain. I'm not anymore. I'm happy, and i'm in the place i want to be. I should drop it and move on with the good stuff I have now, but I'm not letting go of the pain so well ... there are little reminders every now and then, and i am so over-emotional.

I can be so stupid.

I need to finish this shift and go home to curl up with the one who makes me happy.
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