February 13th, 2004

wrath

not clawing at the walls ... yet

I finally got someone hired at work.

She has no experience with animals. We have to train her up from nothing. But she seems bright, amicable, and trainable enough. And she's cheap. And willing to work any shift, which is quite important at this point seeing as how i may have to fire someone soon. Two times in the last week, money has gone missing at work. One person common to both shifts, and the other people around are above reproach. That on top of some other issues, something has to be done soon. I don't want to work with people I can't trust.




I haven't had a cigarette in 26 hours now. I'm doing okay with that. Michael hasn't either, and he's a bit cranky.

Of course, not until after I've decided to quit do I clean the living room and find a full pack. Michael threw it into the back of a closet somewhere. He found another whole cigarette, and I put it down the garbage disposal.

This is going to be quite unfun.




There is at Petco a book on how to deal with bad birds. Michael is going to get it for me so i can get Gurgie to stop attacking me.




I'm looking forward to this Vegas trip that will hopefully happen ... I really want to go, but the arrangements keep getting all complicated. I thought I had it all set up, and then found out that that were conflicting plans. I think it will be fun if we can get it all worked out. My mom wants to buy me tickets to go see Blue Man Group if I do go out there, she says I "have" to see it. So ok, I'll go see it.




Watching the OC the other night with Nico and associates was quite fun ... though I'm afraid I made an ass out of myself by having two beers and deciding to voice my political/social opinions ... i probably shouldn't do that ...

i think for a while i'm going to stick to my policy of avoiding social situations ...
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kaseygoyle

bad.

My sleep is all fucked up today. I got three hours of sleep in the early morning, and then I was wide awake at 8. So I got up, did some stuff, called in a drug order for work. Eventually, I went back to bed to cuddle with Michael, and fell asleep for another three hours. Next thing I know, it's noon, michael is trying to get me out of bed, and I'm more tired and cranky than I was at 8am.

My body is really starting to get tired of the lack of nicotine. I'm really edgy. I'm trying really hard not to take it out on Michel, who seems to be even more short tempered.

Gotta leave here at around seven ... i haven't even taken a shower yet ... Michael left an hour ago to go get food and I wonder what is taking him so long. I asked him if I gave him money to do it, would he buy me chocolates from sees with the purple filling for valentine's day. He seems to think that is a silly idea. While I agree with him on logical grounds, I really like See's chocolates with purple filling, and I have such a history of horrible valentines days that I want something small and pleasant.

I gave Goyle a bath today. My poor baby panicked and screamed ... i felt horrible but he was stinky. He only dug his claws into my hands a few times. He's always been the best cat i have about taking baths, but this was bad today.

michael's upset ... follows that i'm upset .... this day is not going well at all.
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