clockwork.
So the plan changed ...
I ended up going with Tyler and Andy to Clockwork. I haven't been there in a while - it was the first club i ever went to, and i figured it would be a good start for tyler. by the time he's old enough for the good stuff, he'll be more than ready.
I had fun. danced almost the whole time. Tried to teach tyler to dance ... he'll get it eventually. Andy pulled his usual no-talking club routine.
fun aside, i'm a mess. my emotions are a fucking mess.
what happened today - and what almost happened today - at michael's house is not helping me think any clearer.
mixed messages all over the place.
he makes promises - but how could i believe the word of someone who could deceive me so thoroughly?
no decisions being made right now, i promise myself. take time.
the more i know, the less i understand.
i hate my emotions.
I ended up going with Tyler and Andy to Clockwork. I haven't been there in a while - it was the first club i ever went to, and i figured it would be a good start for tyler. by the time he's old enough for the good stuff, he'll be more than ready.
I had fun. danced almost the whole time. Tried to teach tyler to dance ... he'll get it eventually. Andy pulled his usual no-talking club routine.
fun aside, i'm a mess. my emotions are a fucking mess.
what happened today - and what almost happened today - at michael's house is not helping me think any clearer.
mixed messages all over the place.
he makes promises - but how could i believe the word of someone who could deceive me so thoroughly?
no decisions being made right now, i promise myself. take time.
the more i know, the less i understand.
i hate my emotions.
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