July 21st, 2005


In my red high-heels I've no control

I got way too angry last night over something that shouldn't even have bothered me. this is the formula, it happens too often, and i need to fix it:

1. situation happens that is out of my control but affects me.
2. other person handles in a different way than i would have chosen.
3. regardless of the outcome, i get upset that it wasn't handled my way.

and it's a stupid argument, every time.

personality defect of mine, really. i know i've got control issues, you don't have to tell me.

Skipped Maschine because I got the laser thing done wednesday morning, and my shoulder burns like firey fire. didn't feel like dealing with a crowd, because every time something bumps it, it hurts.

Went out to dinner with michael instead, got really drunk, walked for a while, fell asleep at his house. it was nice and quiet and relaxed.

the laser thing ... a few more sessions and i'm done, thank goodness. I'm certainly doing my pennance for having one bad idea when i was seventeen. At least I didn't end up with a sloppy, off-center cheesy tattoo on the back of my neck or something awful like that.

I may actually have company up here in the near future (but i'm not counting on it). so today becomes a 'clean the house and try to ignore the heat' day. I want to make it sparkle. I'm all proud of my little house when it's clean.
  • Current Music
    Crass - Bata Motel

"Out, damned spot! out, I say!"

You Are a Punk Rocker!

When it comes to rock, you don't follow any rules
You know that rocking out is all about taking down the man
You've got an incredible stage presence and rock persona
You scare moms, make bad girls (or boys) swoon, and live life on the edge!

i could have just told them that.

kitchen floor is mopped. that was not fun, and the cats are very upset about the temporary disappearance of food and water. i've actually managed to keep the living room pretty clean, so i really just have the upstairs to clean.

and when i say it like that, it sounds like a small job. heh.
  • Current Music
    Faithless - Insomnia