April 2nd, 2008


new problems, old friends

I'm not going to get into the details.

It's been a very, very rough week. He was as good as gone, so much was going on that I had no clue about, too many things that had gone unsaid. So I got my heart ripped out and reattached more than a few times this week. Hopefully the sutures will hold, this time.

"Is there anything else? Anything? Hit me with it now while I'm already hurt, I can't take this again."

"No ... I'm pretty sure that's it."

Add to the boy worries, the stress of having to quit a decent job i like to take a good job that I'm unsure about, and having to give notice without even being sure of having the new job.

I wasn't eating, wasn't sleeping ... last night we barbequed kabobs, asparagus, and corn, and that was the most food I've eaten all week. That was actually really fun - I cut veggies, he barbequed. We even bought some fake meat so that i could have meat kabobs. We ate outside, since I've cleaned up the backyard and it was such a pleasant night.

I think things will be okay ... bumps in the road, for sure ...

My best friend from my senior year of high school, who disappeared off to Tennessee shortly after I graduated and was pregnant and married shortly after, just found me on myspace. How did we ever find old friends before myspace?

nothing to do.

Twice now I thought I'd be leaving my house and doing something, and twice my plans have fallen through.

So I'm sitting here, in makeup and dressed to go out, hoping something comes along. My friends are busy and far away, and the boy already knows he's going to be working late. Maybe I'll go shopping. Exciting!
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