I'm not so rememberable.
Work last night ... 6-1 ... work tonight, fucking 6-1 again ... work tomorrow ... 9-9. think i can fit any sort of a social life in there? you'd be surprised ... but i don't get to see everyone I want to see. And after all this, I'll be gone until Wednesday night.
In good news, I will have a computer for my trip to the river, so I can still communicate, and not be so isolated. I know I'm a geek. So I ask my mom, half-jokingly, if I can borrow her laptop until Wednesday, figuring I'd get laughed at. Amazingly enough, she says "sure". So I have a portable computer for three days. Yay me. I wish I had the digital camera still so I could post pics. I wonder if I have a camera at all.
Housesitting for my mom this weekend, and next weekend ... my god, this is insane. I'm going to spend maybe two days at my own house in the next week. Long enough to feed my bird, check on the cats, and on to the next place ...
I was asked recently if I regretted moving out to where I live ... I do and I don't. At this point in my life, I needed a permanent place I wasn't going to have to worry about ... I wish it could have been closer to Orange County, but it is where it is, and opportunities like I had so not come often. I hate the drive, the distance ... I love the isolation and I hate it ... I hate it when it becomes loneliness ... sometimes I talk to the animals a little too much. I love that it is my own home, and if i want to paint stars on the bathroom walls, i can. I can chain smoke in my room and no one will bitch. I hate not having any help with the big projects, I can only move furniture up to a certain weight. I love that I am not scared to live alone.
In the end, it's mine. It's where I am, it's where my animals are, and it's where I'll be for a while.