kasey (allthingsshiny) wrote,
kasey
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just kill me.

so all you people who tell me things get better with time ...
liars, all of you.
i want to be able to get through a phone call with him without breaking down crying, either during or after.
i want to not beat myself up over all of it.
it's been what, almost two months now? still, it's just as bad ... when i'm alone, no distractions, no conversations, no work or school ... my thoughts are bleak. i don't want this ...
i want to be loved.

i want the pain to go away.

i think i'm going to need waterproof mascara for this bridesmaid thing.
off to take my frustrations out at the gym.

if anyone knows of anything going on this weekend, you'd let me know, right? i can't stay out too late, but i have friday and saturday night off, and no plans.
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  • Love.

    Sometimes you have to go 2000 miles to get to the one. So worth it. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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    It's already getting wild out here, and I've completely re-evaluated my definition of "behaving myself". All the fun. Posted via LiveJournal…

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    I'm in Nashville. In my beautiful house, with all my wonderful animals, and i'm in love with the man sleeping with his head on my lap right now.…