I was hoping that I wouldn't get comments and questions from half the people there, but i did. I was hoping that I wouldn't have to see Sunny, Purl's littermate, but i saw him and envied his owner. I hoped that everything wouldn't be a reminder, but it was.
This is a nightmare that I'm unable to wake from. I want another chance.
Purl's tags came in the mail yesterday. I put it on my keychain. Everywhere, a reminder. Photos left on my camera that I had forgotten were there. Fluffy puppy fur stuck to my gloves in the car.
And tonight ... midterms, and work again ... i'm going to bomb this test, simply because i don't have the heart to make myself care about it today. I just want to hide under a blanket for a few weeks.
even with my eyes closed ... even in my dreams ... it's simply miserable.