hard to watch someone i care about so wrapped up in something, someone, else. but i long ago accepted that there is nothing i can do about that. and i am learning that i cannot fix everything for everyone. I cannot change what anyone wants. I cannot be everything to anyone.
But things are well enough, as good as i could really expect ... there are issues with things, but none insurmountable, and things will get better ... or at least stay as good as they are ... I don't think I could take any more negativity, any more pain, not right now.
I know I've been wrapped up in self-pity lately. Someone really needs to tell me to shut the fuck up and get over it.
