Suspicion ... of feelings, of motives, of people in general ... i know i am gullible. Knowing doesn't make it any better. I was told fairly recently that I am lied to more than I realize, and that's been bothering me for a while ... optimism and faith in people will only bring me disappointment.
time to be alone and think is a cruel trick played on me.
i made a poor little kitty feel better last night ... i gave it some medicine and held it until it stopped shaking and fell asleep in my arms, and that is so simply exactly why i do what i do.