He was here today, and we talked about a lot of stuff. I know we can't be married. it's ok. It's upsetting, but it's ok. We can be friends. There's no anger, there's a lot of water under that bridge, a lot of good memories. We can be friends.
I feel better tonight. I actually don't feel the need to vodka myself unconscious. Maybe just some beer to take the edge off, just in case i'm not so ok when I'm lying in bed by myself later.
Maybe someday soon i'll be able to sleep with the light off.