kasey (allthingsshiny) wrote,

  • Mood:

stuck in a loop

Feeling like I'm stuck in an ugly cycle.

I'm depressed, so I don't go out much. When I do, it's hard to interact and have a good time.

So I go out even less.

So i stay even more depressed, and morph into a neurotic hermit crazy cat lady.

No one comes over, so i don't bother to clean much. The basics are handled. the very basics.

I'm crocheting obsessively. Losing weight because there is no food here and going to the store is difficult. I cook the random things i have, when i have an appetite. I treadmill.

I'm a little worried about my apathy level. I don't put on music anymore. I haven't dyed my hair in ages. Anxiety levels through the roof.

I wish someone would come over and hang out and watch dumb movies and ... just hang out, really.

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