kasey (allthingsshiny) wrote,
kasey
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misanthropy

I am most entertained by watching other human beings ... their actions, reactions, interactions ... I'm inordinately fascinated by anthropology and sociology, and history for perspective ...

I do prefer to watch from a distance ... the trauma of actually having to deal with some of these people is very much not worth it.

It's funny ... I do love the people I consider friends. I need people ... i need interaction ... but I can only take so much of it before i retreat. I'm all sorts of happy when I go out and see anyone, or people come to see me, but I can only do it every so often ... it becomes overwhelming and I get to the point where I don't like anyone, and i have to hide ...

nice to find one that understands that, and can appreciate it ... he knows he's the only one i can tolerate being around most of the time.

Don't misread this ... like I said, i love my friends ... I couldn't handle things without them, and you know who you are ...
The rest of the people on this planet are really worthless to me, and you know who you are, as well ... some are more worthless than others.

I may be self-centered, but i really think it's the only way to go ... I think it was better stated by another that none of us matter except to ourselves ... I'm the only one that matters to me, and i don't matter, in the long run, to anyone but myself ... so I am in control of and responsible for my own happiness, and I cannot, should not, place that responsibility at the feet of others ...

My excuse for being a hedonist, anyway ...

not to say at all that it's any excuse for mistreating others, either ... If I could be something positive in someone else's existence, great ... but my only real obligation is to be neutral ...

I doubt this makes any sense to anyone but me, but it's a ramble I needed to type out ...

"disappointment's the only rule ... nobody cares the way you want them to ..." - Babyland, The Issuing Line




and in other useless information, boys are messy ... but so am i. I get the house closer to being neat every week, and then I have my apathetic and self indulgent sunday with michael every week ... smoke, drink, eat, watch movies, play, talk, and taunt the animals ... and the house is always a disaster my monday morning ... I'm really not looking forward to digging tea bags out of the garbage disposal and scraping dried ramen off the counter ...

We got most of my shelf built yesterday, only to find that it did not come with the necessary screws to attach it to the wall. Grr. So I have an assembled shelf, complete with sliding clear blue doors, sitting on my couch awaiting my journey to home depot. I've also decided on my next home project ... I'm going to paint the bannister to my stairs blue, to match the carpet ... I think it will brighten up this room ... or make a huge mess ... either way, all sorts of fun ...

Oh, and my new toy arrived via UPS today ... now I can subject you all to more pictures of my cats, and I'm not limited to what I can get positioned in front of the webcam ... muahaha.
God, I'm obnoxious when I have a camera.




oh, and the funniest thing about livejournal ... it's got this "friends" feature ... wherin you only see the people you want to see ... nobody "has" to read anyones writings ... and it's also funny ... just because someone reads yours, you are under no obligation to read theirs ...

i guess it takes some longer to catch on to the obvious, but i thought i would try and help make it clear ...
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    Sometimes you have to go 2000 miles to get to the one. So worth it. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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    It's already getting wild out here, and I've completely re-evaluated my definition of "behaving myself". All the fun. Posted via LiveJournal…

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